For The Moments I Feel Faint

"I'm at war with the world and they
Try to pull me into the dark
I struggle to find my faith
As I'm slippin' from your arms


It's getting harder to stay awake
And my strength is fading fast
You breathe into me at last


I'll stand my ground and never back down
I know what I believe inside
I'm awake and I'm alive


I'm at war with the world cause I
Ain't never gonna sell my soul
I've already made up my mind
No matter what I can't be bought or sold


When my faith is getting weak
And I feel like giving in
You breathe into me again

In the dark
I can feel you in my sleep
In your arms I feel you breathe into me
Forever hold this heart that I will give to you
Forever I will live for you"

-Awake and Alive by Skillet

Well, Jesus Loves You

He looks as though he's got it all together,
but I can see through the act he puts on.
I can see the unhappiness and pain in his eyes,
and the discontentment the tries to hide.
My heart breaks for him,
as he searches for his worth.
For I know he won't find it
in the smoking or drinking or girls.
I wish I could tell him this,
but I don't know what I would say.
Could I tell him that his identity is in God?
Next time he says: "I hate you"
could I tell him: "Jesus loves you."

This is the plan, Stan

Goal: become fluent in español

So, what d'ya wanna be?!

I don't wanna be a dead deer.
I don't wanna be a dead deer.
I think my logic is pretty clear.
I don't wanna be a dead deer.

*Dedicated to Jessica and Linds.

Hello, my name is Star

Twinkle, twinkle little star,
shine so bright for all to see.
Stand up against the wind and rain,
don't hide or cower in a tree.

Twinkle, twinkle little stars,
don't stop shining white.
Hold firm against the chaos,
persevere through the dark of night.

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Do everything without complaining or arguing so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe as you hold out the word of life.
Philippians 2:14-16a

Absorbed and Unaware

In the hallway he goes unnoticed,
everyone is absorbed in themselves.
He trudges along from class to class,
trying hard to forget the past.

In the classroom they work to torment him,
not realizing the harm they've done.
They have no mercy on this poor boy,
his feelings are never considered.

Class after class the bullying persists,
they can't see past his differences.
They laugh and mock and tease and judge,
which crushes his self-confidence.

I pray that they will soon understand,
that differences are not diseases.
I pray that God will soften their hearts,
and show them they need to make changes.

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Accept one another, then,
just as Christ accepted you,
in order to bring praise to God.
-Romans 15:7

The Way We Roll

Don't let them say, "This is the way that you are".

I love being different from everyone, even if it is so very challenging and exhausting and a lot of other things.
Even if most people at school don't understand.
Even if I stick out like a sore thumb.
Even if people think I'm crazy for not wearing short shorts, for not going to parties and for not drinking.
It's definitely worth it.
To see how God is working in my life and through me.
I can't even explain it, I'm just so excited to be in this great big plan that God has made. The same God that created the stars and the mountains with the snow caps and everything beautiful and awe-inspiring.
It's definitely a cool feeling.

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Romans 12:1-2:
Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God—this is your spiritual act of worship. Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

Constructive or destructive?

All this time,
     have I been guarding my heart,
or building up fortified walls?

my mind is on a merry-go-round.

Ahhh! All the distractions. How am I to stay focused?

I'm pressing on

Exhausted. Worn out. Discouraged. Disappointed.
That's school.
Only one. Stand out. Separate. Different.
That's being a Christian at school.

And then there at little nudges of encouragement here and there.
Like a small voice that says, "Keep going. You can do it."

Like when the skid/smoker kid that sits behind you in two classes decides he is going to try to stop swearing.
I don't know about you, but I think that's pretty cool.


So, to sum it up:
I love Jesus.
(Yes I do! I love Jesus, how bout YOU?!)

Road Trip??

Our focus has shifted, our balance is off center.
Somewhere, somehow we took a wrong turn.
And now we're left to deal with the consequences.
The consequences of not knowing what it could be like.
Untill we step outside and change our perseption.
Until we see what it should have been and what it could be.
And realize we are missing out. Big time.
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How could North America go so worng?
Where is the community?
Why are we not family oriented?
Why are we so focused about how many things we can do in a day and how productive we can be?
Why are we so self focused and self absorbed.
Sigh! I want to live somewhere other than North America.

Ummm, yeah

Maybe you should have picked someone else.
I have a feeling I'm just going to end up disappointing you.



Sorry