We're desperate chasing down the love to just survive

There are so many things that we chase after,
our greedy hearts tellin us to run faster.
Often our pursuits are worthless
and we find ourselves left in distress.
Is it really worth it--
the heart ache, turned heart break
that leaves us reeling,
with arms stretched towards the ceiling.
No!
So we ask ourselves:
"how do I fill this hole;
this massive void inside my soul?"
The answer's simple,
it's not a riddle.
God's love will fill the space,
and you'll be chasing and racing after only one taste.

Runnin away should be a viable option..

Things that frustrate me at the moment:

-studentawards.com
-scholarshipscanada.com
-permutations and combinations
-some specific people
-my family
-the fact that I'll probably never get to bible school because of all this resistance I'm meeting in trying to apply and trying to figure out scholarships.
-the fact that I'm going to end being the crazy, old, lonely cat lady that lives at the end of the street.
-my social teacher
-the fact that my neck muscles are always so sore and that I'm always so tired.

As an aside: I'm thankful for compassionate people.

Smile. It's not the end of the world.

Behind these emotionless eyes,
there's the tears of yesterday,
the pain of today,
and the fears of tomorrow.

Behind these tear stained eyes
is the longing for your presence.

becuase all we really want is a little peace, love and hope.
so Father, I lay myself before,
please fill me up and make me more.

If you obey my commands, you will remain in my love,
just as I have obeyed my Father's commands and remain in his love.
I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete. John 15:10-11



God wants to fill us up with his joy so that we don't have to rely on the happiness of this world. Which is a much cheaper version of his joy. Think about it, all we have to do is love God and obey him out of love and he showers abundant promises on us. Promises that he will keep becuase he is a faithful God. So instead of trying to pursue wordly happiness that doesn't last, let God's abundant joy fill you up.

“Great things are not accomplished by those who yield to trends and fads and popular opinion.”
-Jack Kerouac


I'm going to be different and stay different,
so I can make a difference.
I'm a child of God; set apart,
I know this in my heart.
So why try fitting in?
My home is not on this earth.
And I know I've had a sin nature since birth,
but I am not a slave to the grave, no!
To righteousness I am a slave,
a shining light to the depraved.
Against conformity I will rise,
in pursuit of Jesus Christ, my prize.
 
 

"Abide in Me, and I in you"

To abide in Christ is to choose his side
and soak in his presence,
and understand his plan is the best,
far more superior than the rest.
And then, to love him with the very depths of our hearts,
because as God's children, we've been set apart from the start
for a most perfect love.
So abide.
God's the tide,
filling up our cups with more of him
time and time again.

Our Father, who art in Heaven, hallowed be Thy name. Come and let Your glory, come and let Your glory fall.

Our brains are like a Dixie cup and God is like the ocean.
There's no way that we can fully comprehend His power,
but He keeps filling up our Dixie cup so we can experience
a portion of Him, little by little.



**Analogy courteousy of Steve

Despite what we’ve done we’re not alone, we're closer than we think to home.

Being filled with God's peace is..
renewing, rejuvenating, revitalizing, refreshing, relaxing;
pure relief of stress, worries, troubles, pressures.

I love my Jesus, deep down in my heart.

What a Savior, what a King.

You are the Lord, my Redeemer.
I AM YOURS.
You are the Holy One of Israel.
I AM YOURS.
You take hold of my right hand.
I AM YOURS.
You triumph over my attackers.
I AM YOURS.
You give me hope to face another day.
I AM YOURS.
You are faithful and trustworthy.
I AM YOURS.

Who I am hates who I've been

So I'll strive to fix these festering flaws
like nasty little slivers, they work their way deeper and deeper
through my flesh towards my heart.
I didn't notice them before now
but they've been there awhile,
growing and becoming part of who I am.
Don't get me wrong, I know no one is perfect,
but these traits don't belong in my life
if my life is a life for God.
I'm done sleepwalking;
I'm awake and I'm alive.

Motivation/inspiration with which I'm starting my day.

Philippians 3:12-14 (The Message)

I'm not saying that I have this all together, that I have it made. But I am well on my way, reaching out for Christ, who has so wondrously reached out for me. Friends, don't get me wrong: By no means do I count myself an expert in all of this, but I've got my eye on the goal, where God is beckoning us onward—to Jesus. I'm off and running, and I'm not turning back.

Take the time to look around you.

Purity,
Righteousness,
Innocence,
Integrity,
what's the point?

It's all about,
Lust,
Instant gratification,
Doing what feels good,
I mean, that's way more fun,
right?

...That's what the world says.
That's what is shoved down our throats through
tv shows,
movies,
magazines,
books,
commercials,
billboards.
It's EVERYWHERE.

What's your defence against the influence?

Wise words

"If you don't stand for something,
you'll fall for anything."

"Lord I don't know where all this is going,
or how it all works out.
Lead me to peace that is pass understanding
a peace beyond all doubt."

Quote of the day:

"To witness means you must teach. To teach means you must understand. To understand means you must know not only what you believe, but also what they believe."

I heard someone pray:

"Lord we want to be captivated by you and nothing else."

I was struck by the beauty and simplicity of this statement, and I thought, "yeah, that is what I need". As I thought about this statement more, I realized that my life is so full of useless things and distractions that captivate me, when I should be captivated by God and only God.
It makes me sad to think about this; that I put creations before the Creator.
It also gives me determination to try to put God on the thrown of my life; to make a conscience choice each day to turn my praises toward God and spend much more time with him.

You know what I need?
Less distractions y mas fuego!

There's always a choice

I'm reminded once again that
everything is a choice.

We can choose
to love,
to bask on God's joy,
to be kind,
to have patience,
to have faith,
to have self-control,
to forgive others,
and even to forgive ourselves.

But we can also choose
to hurt,
to throw away God's joy,
to discourage,
to be selfish,
to give up,
to become apathetic,
to hold grudges against others,
and against ourselves.

So, "let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess,
for he who promised is faithful."
(Hebrews 10:23)

Sunsets

Can you imagine...
living in a city filled with nearly 15 million people,
where you attend school on weekends as well as weekdays, only having Sunday off,
because education is of the utmost importance to have a successful life?
Can you imagine...
living in a city that is so shrouded by smog that stars aren't visible
and sunsets or sunrises are hidden by the air pollution?

If you can imagine this, then welcome to Beijing.

I'm stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake

"Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am for Your kingdoms cause
As I walk from Earth into Eternity"


Ps I'm thankful for my grade 6 girls.

Rambling on and on and on and on and on and on and on, but not complaining and hardly poetic.

I'll wait for this shadow to lift,
or I"ll try my best to out think it.
It seems to put a big rift
between me and the sonlight.
And I'll try to stop giving away
the things that are supposed to stay
in my soul,
and in my heart.
They're not meant to be apart.
I'm now more aware
of what is taking place
and what is taking the place
of the gifts I've been given.
I need to start living
and striving
and not backing down
or giving in
or giving up
or giving away what I need.


Ps I'm thankful for affirmation from a friend,
and being taken care of when I don't have a lunch.

Maybe I'll just drop out and move to Mexico..

I miss the days when more studying ensures a better test mark.